One step at a time

j_niff @ 2005-07-09T14:43:00

2005-07-09T19:46:46Z

been a while, but that's cuz lj'ing just isn't fun anymore
and the business of summer

last night saw fantastic 4,fell in love w/jessica alba (sp?)...
almsot got into a car accident in downtown naperville,
almost killed some people on accident

White Castle late at night, some what eating contest
Asians w/ketchup...burned the bitches
Listening to Tom Petty loud, prepping for the concert in 6 days

Almost killed a cat by my pond stoning it
Smoked Cigars WITHOUT pants on, the real way to smoke one
Peeing in the pond for distance

need i say more,
i love summer

i love katie holmes

2005-06-15T19:29:37Z

So the Last couple days have been REALLLLY busy...

Mr. & Mrs. Smith
&
Batman Begins

Where Awesome!

Hung out w/a bunch of cool chicks and guys. i'm ejoying summer thoroughly!

BOWLING TONIGHT BITCHES!!!!!

katie holmes = future wife

there's a light on in chicago...but i know i should be home (new mexico?)

2005-06-11T16:26:49Z

Leaving around the 17th-22nd range...trying to get it extened to the 22nd.

so my friday was awesome.

no lifting but whatever, i'll do that today.

went bowling w/Frankie Pires, BIll kap, David Ngo, Cyrus and Zaid..i'm not a huge fan of gambling, but a gambled in a game or two, it was nuts. i lost, but the scores where 155 155 156. shit

then frankie and cyrus and i decided to go to briana garza's party. she's awesome and so are her parties. to many north kids though.

Mr. Graza is a straight up thug, i watched him do 5 keg stands w/in 30 min, that guys my hero

Randy is dope, and i do believe at this age in life you can love someone, so you go for it man. And keep using the word love, not like. You're awesome

Saab convertibles at 1:30 am are pretty fucking sweet

Now i'm out to Lifetime hopefully Walter Payton's Brother will be there again.

Movies Tonight? we'll see.

j_niff @ 2005-06-09T16:38:00

2005-06-09T21:32:22Z

yay highschool is over!!

got my diploma, that's dope.

tons of money, getting ton of more money from relatives right before i leave.

got a 1969 fender rendondo guitar! hellz yah! and some clothes/shoes for football

life is fucking sweet

yup

2005-05-12T00:28:51Z

You scored as Prep/Jock/Cheerleader.

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Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

44%

Sex God

38%

Badass

31%

Keeping it real Guy

31%

Smart

19%

Thug

13%

Emo

13%

Hates Gays

What's Your High School Stereotype?
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You're gorgeous!

2005-05-04T03:50:08Z

Prom '05 fucking rocked. I had a great time.

My date was awesome, and sooo beautiful..i thought prettiest one..that's just me

Post PRom was alright

Sox Game sunday...missed my prom date

UPS is bogus, no one should work there

Girl soccer games rock....i'm a true fan :)

JOB looking tomorrow at Car places

I wish i could just go up to some people, tell them how i feel about them, and they agree and have the same feeling...

to bad this is not reality

College should change this

Niff

WANNA FIGHT??!

2005-04-29T03:04:16Z

someone asked me today, if i've ever had a gf..my response was no

so i thought about it..and realized, that anyone i've ever been close too, just got out of a relationship...and we are best friends..until that someone comes back into there life. I can't even count how many times this has happened, and w/people i thought where good friends.

so i'm saying to all of you, Fuck off, i hate you.

that felt good, sorry if it offended anyone.

I think Glenbard West Sucks dick, i'm not gonna lie, i hate most of the people there. And have never met such a big group of Fake kids in my whole entire life. Good learning experience though

MIke Q's a thug though, and knows where i'm coming from, and so does Suhail, so that's pretty sweet, some people agree.

I wanna go up to most of the guys and most of the girls, and just punch them in the face and break there noses. even if i don't know them, cuz i think it would be good.

FUCK YOU

Niff

Ps. this was a hostle journal centered toward how some people are..and this being my journal..i wrote how i felt

LOVE YOU ALL!

Wow, what a baby

2005-04-24T06:09:18Z

Tonights events: *this may take a while to type*

so i was in the car w/zaid and we call abdul to see what diva's/sarah's cell is. zaid said he was looking for me, cuz i didn't feel like talking to abdul and having 50 questions about what im' doing. blah blah blah. anyways, we get home zaid and i are online tlaking to abdul, and we say, hey abdul zaid wants a new basketball. and he's like no he doesn't, he would have told me on the phone he doesn't care. and zaid was starting to get mad, so was i. How abdul could assume zaid didn't want a new ball, because he asked for sarah's cell...makes no sense at all, but abdul's dumb like that so i guess it did. anyways, side note:zaid lent abdul his basketball a while back when it was pretty damn nice, abdul lost the ball, and tried replacing it w/a really shitty spalding ball. zaid said you took reponsibility you owe me a new one. and abdul said i don't have to get a new one, cuz i gave u one in the same condition as ur old one. zaid says that's bs, cuz at the library u lose a book, u pay the full new price. so abdul is gay, so we say ur fucked. we go to his house, and zaid's brother saad draws a funny picture, and we put, call back now, or the next one goes on ur mom's window! so abdul says... put one on my mom windows the cops get involved . he's such a little bitch. so zaid says ok, so they can know u are a theif and a liar. anyways, we decide abdul's not worth the time, and zaid calls home, cuz abdul said that he called zaid's brother and he didn't care..funny thing is, zaid's brother cares actually, and is gonna bitch abdul out huge tomorrow, so we call, find out abdul NEVER called zaid's brother, but zaid's DAD!!! that ass called zaid's dad and talked to him, getting zaid in trouble.all i can say is wow...abdul is a momma's boy, and calls up people's parents when he can't resolve issues. i felt bad for zaid cuz he was pretty damn pissed that abdul would call his dad and get his dad up on his ass for something soooo stupid. So we decided that abdul lies about everything..and if anyone doesn't believe this, dave and mike where there as witnesses to this completely idioticy!!!

anyways, so i guess i'm going to University of New Mexico. Oh well. my dad's gonna be mad at me tomorrow if i don't stop by his house..i don't have a car, so he'll be pissed. I haven't gotten a tux, or a ticket yet for prom, and my mom is yelling at me right now...and it's hurting my head. i didn't get to hang out w/jessie this weekend, attempted two times, oh well. they had games :(

i just wanna see that smile

what a fucked up weekend

niff

i'll be your best kept secret, and your biggest mistake...

2005-04-22T02:58:27Z

Drink down the Gin and Kirosine, and come spit on bridges w/me...

I suck at track now.
I suck at lifting.
I still haven't made out ever..I'm about to graduate from highschool.
I suck at school.
I can't go to baylor anymore, cuz my mom won't co-sign my student loans...
I just realized how much my future is fucked up
I also know now, that my body sucks.
I'm ending highschool on a horrible note.
I hate life
I hate not hating life
I'm confused
I like starting every line w/"I", get over it.

your smile brightens up my day everytime..and you're gorgeous

Niff

Senior year...

2005-04-18T15:06:45Z

Tough weekend..my lungs aren't working, so i'm on steroids..only for the lungs though, that should hopefully help

anyways, i was thinking about senior year/summer last night and all the fun times i had, but the most Memorable are:
1.My FIRST TIME RUKUSING W/JOE AND KYLE!!!
2. Rukusing w/kyle, mike and joe and coming to clare's about an hour and a half late cuz of it haha
3. The Senior Walk at the begining of the year
4. Hanging w/amy a ton haha
5. Homecoming
6. Getting caught drinking, ewwww
7. Mistle toe madness :)
8. Making new friends over winter break!
9. Long drives w/some people just talking and thinking :)
10. Hearthop
11. Asking Jessie to prom/hanging w/her during spring break

Oh man im' sure i missed a ton of stuff inbetween like soccer season, track, quitting gymnastics ect...

However, i would appreciate it if you guys would comment and give me a list of some of your memorable moments. that would make me happy thank you

Niff

i <3 having 2 days of then the weekend

2005-04-15T17:29:57Z

so i stayed home thursday and friday from school *at home right now* i like it, kind of sick though, oh well.

anyways, not much going on, saw jessie's soccer game yesterday, then the boy's gymnastics meet, that was fun.

people lie alot, and make a ton of stuff up, i hate it

LATER HONKIES
Niff

PS: my journal's may sound dumb, and insignifacant matters, but my life is quite boring so i just write the stupid stuff down :)

turning 18.....tomorrow

2005-04-12T02:34:24Z

my birthday is tomorrow, on tuesday. i hate my birthday, i hate it every year.
i can not wait till tomorrow is over. to top it off, i talked to my dad tonight, cuz i've been really busy the last two weeks, and he pretty much said some really hurtful stuff, just because i can't call him every 5 min everyday like my brother...fuck that

life sucks, i'm sucking at track, i'm sucking at lifting, and i'm sucking kind of at school. i'll probably suck at my bday too

something cool, my prom group rocks, Randy, Kawahara, Lazarra, Joyce, Pires, Dorgan, Schmid, and Kaplan, that's a damn good group.

i think i need to hang w/jessie this weekend..and get to talking to her more than just once in a while. ha

Joyce and I are going to go buy cigars this weekend and go to woodfield to get me clothes, and just chill cuz i need to hang out w/someone for my bday weekend, instead of it sucking like it does EVERY year

and Amy made my day by wishing me a pre-happy bday!! thanks amy, it meant alot!!!

anywho, i'll update towards the end of the week if my life becomes interesting in anyway.

niff

Side notes:
i need to get an MRI most likely for my knee!!...
shoulder is really really hurting again
and i'm fat

(this is a kind of Emo entry, but..i'm an a KIND of Emo mood, i know Mike Q. knows about the Emo mood)

keep it real ya'll

hamlet by william shakespeare

2005-04-07T04:00:14Z

weekend-suhail's experience.

monday-chilled, started lifting again

tuesday-outside home meet, didn't go to well, asked Jessie officially to prom

today-shot put, and a crazy experience at Camera park @ 8:30 pm, involving, 2 blacks, 4 cars filled w/latin kings, and about 9 cop cars, w/dogs in each one. not going back there again, it's becoming a gang hang out place. thank god the cop said i could leave and didn't have to be questioned like the other kids..

referendum didn't pass. fuck that shit. some kids are gay how they are all against the referendum, then PMS when it doesn't pass..i don't get it? whatever, Mike Q. knows what i'm talking about.

our motto: Graduate, party, leave and never come back...it's all about the new beginings. the old memories are fine, but lets begin life already.

gonna try to hang out w/a new group of kids i haven't hung out w/in a while this weekend, actually looking forward to it.

screw the South/West dance..if i'm really bored, i'll go. I'm gonna hit up the most haunted cemetery in the U.S. possibly the world Saturday night, w/some cool kids, we'll see what all goes down

For Now, G-to the mother Fucking-H represent, and Q's, keep thugging
~Mig you are absent from my life! :(

Niff

spring break, thus far (till thursday morning)

2005-03-31T16:45:08Z

the weekend was ok. Easter i kept it real.

Monday saw a drug bust, almost got into two fights, then hung out w/bartlett, miller, johnson, crandall, and sanew. A little bit of Steak and Shake, Dance Off w/some random kids. Try to go to the bowling ally, to long of a wait, called it a night. eh..

Next two days though where the best..Tuesday played basketball, chilled at home, then hung out w/jessie, diva and abdul. Went to newton at like 10, to walk around it was awesome. Then headed over to Frankie Pires till 1.

Wednesday, went to Faisal's barbeque and got some good food, played some hoops at beister w/Suhail, schmidt, and nelson. Head home, (got really really wet, but had fun), and just sat around. Then i headed over to Jessie's house and watched Varsity Blues, i <3 that movie!

Lets see...today i MIGHT be going to Wisconsin to Joyce's lake house w/Suhail, Frankie, and Randy (if suhail calls me!), then Friday we are gonna hit up Madison, then Come home Saturday Morning...i really hope this works out, i wanna get out of the house

EDIT Madison/Wisconsin is a NO go :(...

i'll update sunday about how the weekend turned out

niff

no title

2005-03-25T18:27:52Z

last night was cool, helped frankie ask elaine to prom, that was hard work actually, ha.

went bowling, w/bob schmidt, abdul, tyler visco, dave, bill, diva, charlie, and jessie mac

left the bowling ally, stopped by mcdonald's it was too late, ran over to jessie's car, (she was driving) and handed her flowers, telling her i'm asking her to prom, but gonna be gone this weekend, but just wanted to give her something (still have to ask creatively though)..i think she liked it haha, i hope

anyways, leaving in about 30 minutes to go to my dad's for the weekend, but i'll be back in 2 days, and hopefully hang out w/some people some more

Niff

Sidenotes:
*jessie is really pretty, and fun
*bowling rocks, i sucked though
*next week need to ask her creatively/hang w/some more people
*joyce's lake house? anyone wants to go call me or joyce (he wants alot of people)
*i hope things are changing for me

love 'ing it

2005-03-24T00:17:15Z

i thought i was deleting this, but you guys made me feel pretty good, thanks a ton.

so anyways, this week has been rough, told a girl that i actually DIDN'T want to go to prom w/her yesterday (never officially asked her though)...she's pissed, oh well. ANd found out the one i wanted to go w/, wants to go w/me, but got asked already. something i'm happy about though,i'm gonna be asking jessie macdonald i think, so that's pretty exciting..my original one i wanted to go w/, (should have stuck to that haha)

bigger news, my dad gets the mail today, and calls me casually telling me i got a $17,000 a year!! scholarship from Baylor University!! HOly shit! that doesn't even include financial aid...then my tax returns came in. Not bad.

Going to my dad's for Good Friday till Easter/Monday Morning..only gonna be gone two days, not bad, then i got the rest of spring break ahead of me to hang w/some people..kind of hoping something happens, we'll see.

joining Rugby next Monday, yes..two sports at the same time, i <3 sports :).

anyone staying home for break...call me or something, and lets chill

niff

last update

2005-03-19T02:05:16Z

so i'm thinking this might be my last journal update...or second to last.

no one reads this journal anyways, and my life is to redundant..w/no entertainment...

i think this feeling right now is EMO, it's friday, i'm not at the wheel chair basketball game, and i highly doubt the people that are gonna call me after it, are going to/want to...

if anyone thinks i should keep this thing, cuz they like reading it...let me know.

niff

Another Upcoming Week

2005-03-13T16:28:50Z

this weekend..worked out, basketball, hung out w/some people, didn't hang w/some people, it happens, and the Shimmy..

Made an ass out of myself. Honestly, who cares.

Going to prom w/someone very cool, that's exciting.

Gonna go visit a friend in the hospital today, hang out w/his brother?

Dancing Award for the Shimmy:
Katie Sanew, and Carolyn Bartlett. (aka the only people i danced w/haha)

thought about alot of stuff last night, realized alot, understood none of it.

niff

i like track

2005-03-11T02:54:00Z

deleted last entry..cuz i can.

so today at Glenbard East (track meet) i threw 35'8" that's a new PR bitches!

so this weekend is the Shamrock Shimmy, thinking about going not sure yet. Gonna do some hanging w/some friends/someone i'm kind of pumped to hang w/?..we'll see.

So for spring break i'm going to joyce's lake house w/a cool bunch of kids? sounds fun, lets see what parents say.

keep it real,
niff

Side Note: Why do guys straighten their hair?

keep quite, nothing comes as easy as you

2005-03-06T19:01:51Z

wooo for weekends.

so this weekend has been alright i guess.

thursday i went to Wheaton College Fitness Center at Night, cuz i kind of like this girl on the soccer team there. so that was interesting. Then i went to lifetime to work out

firday i went back to wheaton college for the same reason... :). then i lifted at lifetime and went to the boy's gymnastics meet. that was fun

saturday...well, this day i was most excited about, but..nothing happened/no new experiences which REALLY bummed me out...went to the movies w/wika, bartlett, mashburn, diva, and abdul. the movie FUCKING died on us, so we just left.

then we met up w/wika and diva, Jessie Mac (i think i'm in love w/her haha), sanew and Sarah Sanchez. Talked for about an hour, then picked up Zaid and watched Coyote Ugly and Sanchez's house w/the gals. After that i went to Lifetime to lift, swim, and jacuzzi, came home at 2am.

Final thoughts:
*Wheaton College is amazing..i wish that girl wasn't a jr. in college
*I"m a perminent FREE member to lifetime fitness!!! BITCHES!
*Hung out w/jessie mac for the first time..she's kind of shy, but i really want to get to know her better!! Hang w/her next weekend??/Shamrock SHimmy?

Niff

team steroids..the soft core porn from Economics w/Staron

2005-02-23T23:14:13Z

so anyways,
school sucks, world sucks, and lifting rocks.

girls sectional's lost, oh well. you guys rock

meeting some new people/becoming friends w/some people, that's always fun.

jose s. fucking rocks, and cobo's a thug too, as well as joyce. lifting is always better w/people that are cool.

kind of want a person in my life. but no fucking relationships, cuz that shit's for losers. however, people going to over board w/ "end of the year, we need to hook up" deals. i'm about that, but not to an extreme. we'll see how that goes.

need to do some hanging w/the Q's sometime. been to long, i need rukus.
Partying w/my guy MIG soon hopefully. nice apartment dude!

People are talking about prom already..why? I'm not sure if i'm going, don't konw who to ask, if anyone would wanna go w/me..we'll see, i get a free tux, got to use it somewhere.

Going to wisconsin the whole weekend, just cuz i can.

niff

who the fuck boo's at a gymnastics meet?

2005-02-19T00:59:06Z

..i'm pretty disappointed. i felt so bad for the other schools. no one understands..gymnastics is not a sport you boo the opponent on. it's so distracting and so dangerous, when negative vibes flow. from experience, i know.

Go get 'em girls.

eh, what do u expect when u get superfans from Basketball and Football to come to a place where it's suppose to be quite and intense. For Example, State for Boy's Gymnastics..very quite compared to this, thus, it wasn't boring, and the intensity was HUGE!

people who don't know about gymnastics, sound really dumb insulting, those gay fans.

GDub Girls did fairly descent first round, maggie stuck the vault, was about it, a good hit routine from jill and maggie on bars, they have to watch out for form breaks though on floor, and beam if they wanna stay top 8. Cheering for our team was really good though, i'm sure the girls felt great. (besides the fact i was gonna kick a bunch of ass's for booing the other schools).

i have hostility, so sue me.

niff

need to get out this weekend, rest from working out

2005-02-15T23:02:19Z

i'm ready to leave for college in a heart beat for sure, without a hesitation..

but, i haven't really gone out in like a month or two, and i need to hang out with some friends.. :(, no sleeping all weekend

keep it real i guess
niff

There's always a better story

2005-02-14T05:27:07Z

Valentines (American Holiday) = FUCKING gay.

Valentines (the original story of how it came to be)= Fucking Dope.

My guy St. Valentinopolus is a true thug for keeping it real in jail, and sticking to his beliefs even though he was about to get killed. So he tutored some blind girl, and became her eyes to the world the last weeks in jail, some how she gets her vision, the day he is going to die, he rights her a FRIEND letter, telling her to keep it real the rest of her life
Sincerely,
Valentine

The guys dope, i'm not gonna lie St. Valentinopolus knows how to keep it real and show friendship.

Sincerely,
Your Valentine,
Niff :)

"losing you, was hardly a lost, it just took time to realize it"

2005-02-10T02:45:16Z

Track Meet at Proviso West was thuggin', Black people don't scare me, at all.

Andrew Taylor is a pretty cool kat, Eddie Gastel always keeping it real, Ray's dope, Track's quite fun. Maggie DuVall = Most Awesome Gymnast/Chick ever.I think it's agreed by everyone.

School's fun, Lifting is awesome, not talking to alot of people nowadays seems to be how it goes, i'm ok with that.

It's really wierd not having a thing for ANYONE at this Highschool, first time since regestration freshman year. It's pretty dope not caring or having to worry about a special someone, that shit's over-rated.

People already asking me who i wanna ask to Prom...isn't this a little soon?! Some kids laid some suggestions down for me, i'm not really worried, or listened, i got like 1-2 months before i should even begin to think about it.

as always, the Q's understand most of what i mean when i say, i'm ready to get the FUG out of here.

keep it real
niff?